:: The Man of Tomorrow ::

Kukira aku memilikimu untuk sesaat..
Namun ternyata kau menjelma menjadi sebuah ketidakpuasan lainnya..
Yang kembali membutuhkan dirimu yang lain..

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Kukira semua ketidakpuasanku akan terselesaikan saat aku memilikimu..
Ternyata kau hanya menambah rasa tak puas yang kumiliki..
Dan hilang dalam hitungan detik..

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Kenyataannya aku tak pernah bisa memilikimu..
Meskipun aku bisa memilih merasa memilikimu..
Untuk sebuah penghiburan diri dan permakluman dari orang lain..

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Dan aku memutuskan untuk berhenti mencarimu..
Dan berhenti mengharapkanmu..
Dan berhenti bersikap seolah aku mengenalmu..

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Dalam ada dan tiada..
Kau tiada bagiku.

I feel kinda miserable today.
Everything seemed to be wrong.
I know the problem is in me, and only if I able to feel fine,
everything is actually just fine.

But the problem is, I don’t feel fine at all.
No matter how I tried, I just feel wrong.
I’m losing myself in the middle of everything.

I hate this feeling and I hate it too,
when I know a day like this will always come once in a while,
and I am still not able to feel comfort within it.

I know I just have to pass the day and forget it.
Just when sleep, that always help me to pass and forget it fast,
doesn’t work at all..
I start to wonder what am I going to do with this feeling?

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Where is my lullaby?

You said that the sky is blue because it reflects the color of the sea.

But, did you know, that the sea is also reflecting the aura of the sky?

That is why the sea is waving when the sky is darkened,

and it becomes pale whenever the sky is bleached.

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Just like I do love blue of the blue sky,

that is exactly how much I want your sky to be constantly blue.

Whoever your sea is !